I've always resisted change. I used to absolutely LOATHE it when I was a child, and while I've gotten much better, I still don't like it. Opportunities equal change and, for me, that means opportunities can be scary. I've been reflecting on opportunities lately so I thought I should blog about it. Opportunities are an unknown. They are a risk. Now, they might be a very minor risk, but they are still a risk.
I'm the kind of person who has to psych myself up when faced with an opportunity. The conversation in my head usually goes something like this: *initial reaction is to not want to do X* "But you technically can." "But I don't really want to." "Not wanting to is not a good excuse. It would be good for you." "Still don't want to." "You know that you should do this. It will be a good experience." You get the idea. If I have a few days to think, I usually talk myself into it. Other times, I make myself reach out for details before deciding. But my hesitation about opportunities also stems from one that ended badly. I did a contract photography job for a short time that ended in me experiencing my first panic/anxiety attacks and to this day I don't know why. What started out appearing to be an opportunity straight from God ended with fear. It shook me and it has made me wary of accepting new opportunities. However, I also know that is not a good, healthy, or right place to live. These days, I am trying to be brave. I'm trying to do new things and get out of my comfort zone. I applied for an editing position. I contacted someone about some freelance work. The first one is something I would love to do but I was still scared! It was still hard for me to apply. The second is something that sounds like it would be interesting and still allow me to work on this business. But it was still a little hard to reach out for more details. I'm someone who is afraid to fail if I feel like that will mean letting people down. But I'm learning and trying to live a little braver. To say "yes" to opportunities when I can. To push myself out of my comfort zone when it is for my own good. I'm growing and healing and trying to form a life that I love. It's hard. It can be scary. Opportunities can be scary but they can also be good. I want to focus on the good. How do you feel about opportunities? Are they exciting for you or do you also feel daunted and slightly scared by them?
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Hi! I'm Sarah!
I am a natural light portrait photographer. I've been taking photos since 2014 and would eat a smoothie from Tropical Smoothie Cafe for lunch everyday if I could. Thank you so much for stopping by. I blog about sessions, things I'm learning, stuff in my life, and information for YOU, my client. If you like what you see around the site, I'd love to work with you! I'd also love to connect with you on Instagram. I'm @sarah_jayne_photo :) Archives
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